Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Merry Christmas!!!
The title says it. It's Christmas!
It's been a looong time again. I should've rambled about the Recollection and the very late Christmas break, but these events were too tiring to reflect on. So I rested for a while so I may have the enthusiasm to attempt to type about them. Here goes...
Although I am making steps to apostatise Catholicism, or Christianity in general, I admit that I have this hesitation that seems to pull me back. I even felt weird that during this plan of excommunicating myself from the Church, recollection came in. It was about trust in God as a friend and His trust in people as stewards of creation. But what caught my attention personally was our obligation as humans to respect other humans no matter how sickening they are. "Man is created in the image and likeness of God" as what the Bible says. Although I incline more to Darwin's evolution theory, I still have doubts.
I doubt everything now. Back then, it was only the existence of a "Divine Providence." But after an introduction to Philosophy, especially in Metaphysics, I learned to doubt Science. Now what do I absolutely trust? Nothing, I guess. Just myself. As Descartes phrased, "Cogito ergo sum," I think, therefore I am. No one can doubt the doubter.
I do really ramble. See where it led me? Now back to the recollection thing about respect for others. I find it hard to be a Catholic human. In the standards of this religion, authentic humanity is achieved if one recognizes that: he is created in the image and likeness of God; he is a steward of God's gifts and therefore should NOT OWN earthly things; and he is a fellow human being, which means that others like him exist and therefore he should learn to coexist.
Only three requisites. But very difficult requisites. A friend, who was sitting beside me during the sessions, said, "It's a challenge to be human." That is, if you are Catholic.
Another coincidence is our RS group report on the Sacrament of Baptism. Among many other stuff, I discovered that when a person is baptized with water in the names of the Holy Trinity, an indelible character is made on the soul of the baptized. Indelible. Permanent. Perhaps this "indelible character" is causing this hesitation. Then I had this uncanny feeling of being called to be a priest. Then I laughed hysterically. Only in my mind however. I was obviously exaggerating... and confusing myself.
It's been a looong time again. I should've rambled about the Recollection and the very late Christmas break, but these events were too tiring to reflect on. So I rested for a while so I may have the enthusiasm to attempt to type about them. Here goes...
Although I am making steps to apostatise Catholicism, or Christianity in general, I admit that I have this hesitation that seems to pull me back. I even felt weird that during this plan of excommunicating myself from the Church, recollection came in. It was about trust in God as a friend and His trust in people as stewards of creation. But what caught my attention personally was our obligation as humans to respect other humans no matter how sickening they are. "Man is created in the image and likeness of God" as what the Bible says. Although I incline more to Darwin's evolution theory, I still have doubts.
I doubt everything now. Back then, it was only the existence of a "Divine Providence." But after an introduction to Philosophy, especially in Metaphysics, I learned to doubt Science. Now what do I absolutely trust? Nothing, I guess. Just myself. As Descartes phrased, "Cogito ergo sum," I think, therefore I am. No one can doubt the doubter.
I do really ramble. See where it led me? Now back to the recollection thing about respect for others. I find it hard to be a Catholic human. In the standards of this religion, authentic humanity is achieved if one recognizes that: he is created in the image and likeness of God; he is a steward of God's gifts and therefore should NOT OWN earthly things; and he is a fellow human being, which means that others like him exist and therefore he should learn to coexist.
Only three requisites. But very difficult requisites. A friend, who was sitting beside me during the sessions, said, "It's a challenge to be human." That is, if you are Catholic.
Another coincidence is our RS group report on the Sacrament of Baptism. Among many other stuff, I discovered that when a person is baptized with water in the names of the Holy Trinity, an indelible character is made on the soul of the baptized. Indelible. Permanent. Perhaps this "indelible character" is causing this hesitation. Then I had this uncanny feeling of being called to be a priest. Then I laughed hysterically. Only in my mind however. I was obviously exaggerating... and confusing myself.
Monday, December 05, 2005
Ateneo Fiesta ends...
It was a draaaag. At least for me. I guess others always find a way to enjoy this week-long holiday but for me? Lazy days again. Aside from occasionally going to school to write an article about an insignificant event and win second place in quiz bowl, I stayed home and slept and ate and watched TV and slept and ate and watched TV and played some game and ate and slept and watched TV... It's the usual cycle of activities of my sedentary, desolate life.
Well, actually this aren't the only things that compose and define my daily living. I have other "stuff" but I never mention them to anyone else. So I definitely won't type about them here. Who doesn't have secrets? I'm a good lier. But I don't lie to hurt someone else or myself especially. I don't lie to impress or appease others, like some people I know. I lie usually to excuse myself. I lie to mask a refusal to an invitation or, in this case, to keep secrets, both mine and of my friends. I felt bad about this lying. But again, who doesn't lie? Especially when it come with his secrets?
Well, actually this aren't the only things that compose and define my daily living. I have other "stuff" but I never mention them to anyone else. So I definitely won't type about them here. Who doesn't have secrets? I'm a good lier. But I don't lie to hurt someone else or myself especially. I don't lie to impress or appease others, like some people I know. I lie usually to excuse myself. I lie to mask a refusal to an invitation or, in this case, to keep secrets, both mine and of my friends. I felt bad about this lying. But again, who doesn't lie? Especially when it come with his secrets?
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