Merry Christmas!!!

The title says it. It's Christmas!

It's been a looong time again. I should've rambled about the Recollection and the very late Christmas break, but these events were too tiring to reflect on. So I rested for a while so I may have the enthusiasm to attempt to type about them. Here goes...

Although I am making steps to apostatise Catholicism, or Christianity in general, I admit that I have this hesitation that seems to pull me back. I even felt weird that during this plan of excommunicating myself from the Church, recollection came in. It was about trust in God as a friend and His trust in people as stewards of creation. But what caught my attention personally was our obligation as humans to respect other humans no matter how sickening they are. "Man is created in the image and likeness of God" as what the Bible says. Although I incline more to Darwin's evolution theory, I still have doubts.

I doubt everything now. Back then, it was only the existence of a "Divine Providence." But after an introduction to Philosophy, especially in Metaphysics, I learned to doubt Science. Now what do I absolutely trust? Nothing, I guess. Just myself. As Descartes phrased, "Cogito ergo sum," I think, therefore I am. No one can doubt the doubter.

I do really ramble. See where it led me? Now back to the recollection thing about respect for others. I find it hard to be a Catholic human. In the standards of this religion, authentic humanity is achieved if one recognizes that: he is created in the image and likeness of God; he is a steward of God's gifts and therefore should NOT OWN earthly things; and he is a fellow human being, which means that others like him exist and therefore he should learn to coexist.

Only three requisites. But very difficult requisites. A friend, who was sitting beside me during the sessions, said, "It's a challenge to be human." That is, if you are Catholic.

Another coincidence is our RS group report on the Sacrament of Baptism. Among many other stuff, I discovered that when a person is baptized with water in the names of the Holy Trinity, an indelible character is made on the soul of the baptized. Indelible. Permanent. Perhaps this "indelible character" is causing this hesitation. Then I had this uncanny feeling of being called to be a priest. Then I laughed hysterically. Only in my mind however. I was obviously exaggerating... and confusing myself.